My first post...

   I'm new to the world of blogging. In fact, I'm not even sure why I have started. I think this might be more for my sake then for yours. It seems to be a faster way to get my thoughts written down and update you with my life while I'm at it. Honestly, I don't know how faithful I'm going to be in updating this site, but I'm giving it a go. 


    I always figured I'd start blogging after the Lord sent me out somewhere. But I'm still here at home.  It's a good thing though. I have to remind myself that fact daily, but I know that this is where the Lord has me now. He is definitely preparing me while I'm here. I'm getting really excited about it. I feel like I've only begun to allow the Lord to work the things in me that He has desired to for some time now. Why did I hesitate? That's what I keep asking myself. Foolish reasons I'm sure! But the process is going now and boy does it feel great! If you're wondering what exactly I'm doing at home, I'll tell you. And if you're not, I'm still gonna tell you. 


*-Looking for a job, which has not gone well. Still looking.
*-Volunteering at my church in the office. I'm the receptionist there on thursdays. I absolutely love it! However, I can only do this once a week cause I don't have a job, and I'm not gonna be spending gas and have the grandparents pay for it. 
*- Spending lots of time with the family. Trying to humbly serve them because I know that is one thing the Lord desires of me.  
*-And as many of you have heard me say, to sum it all up I'm waiting on the Lord and occupying the time.  


So that's home for me right now! I have no clear vision of the things after this. But then does anyone? I doubt it. I am holding on to these words that the Lord has given me, "Vanessa, home is not where I want you." I understand that I will not be living here, most likely not even in California, for the long term. I know without a doubt that the Lord has different plans for me. Where? When? These are the questions that I daily ask the Lord. I still do not know. It could be this next approaching year, or when I'm 30. But I have assurance it will be.  What do I want to do with my life? I want to serve the Lord with it! I want my life to be full time ministry. The Lord has placed in me a strong desire to work with a church plant where it's needed. I'm thinking administration (because I enjoy that) but I'm open for anything. Children's ministry, woman's ministry, or even janitor. When I tell people that the reaction is sadly often, "You realize you're not going to make much money doing that?" I tell them, "Actually, I probably won't make any money at all until the church get's deeper roots." This bums me out! Not that I won't get money, but that they only see the earthly value. The whole point of me wanting to be in full time ministry is because of this desire to live for the heavelies.  That's the whole point of my heading! "ONE THING I HAVE DESIRED." Psalms 27:4 says, "One thing I have desired of the LORD, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD, And to inquire in His temple." 


Well, I think that's all I'm going to share for now... There is so much more, but not enough time. If anyone reads this, I hope you don't feel like your wasting your time. Maybe you are, like I said, it's more for me than for you. Anyway, there is a glimpse into my life.